Well, there's nothing really that horrific about it. I'm just getting incredibly stressed about the exams, and for no good reason: there is always the opportunity of a re-sit. Which, as you probably know, I intend to do.
Today I had a Biology exam. I can't tell you how it went, since I'm actually writing this post in advance, but I can tell you how revision went: horribly. Gone are the days when my mind used to absorb knowledge like a sponge; I was sat at my desk for about an hour reading and re-reading the same question over and over again. It simply would not sink in. As you can imagine, this got me rather angry, and in my anger I tweeted this:
"I give up. Biology can go fuck itself. I don't care anymore."
Which, to an extent, is true. I've given up revising for the exams we sit this week. I already know that I'm not going to do well in them; there's still a part of Maths that I haven't learned, Biology isn't compatible with my brain, and Physics was just doomed from the start. However, I have decided that, contrary to what yesterday's post might suggest, I will put effort into learning what I need to know for the exams — but the re-sits, not the current exams. There's no point in me cramming now and doing badly in the exam and giving up. I might as well sit these exams now, if only to get a sense of what they're like, and then I will arrange with my teachers that I go in during free lessons to go over work. To keep what I learn fresh, I'm going to ask the teachers for huge amounts of past papers and exercise sheets which I will do when I get home from school every day, though I'll probably do the sheets weekly.
I know this makes me sound like a massive geek, but I really want to do well at school: if only to get into Uni to study English.
People who know me well enough will know that I am practically an internet addict. I am. The internet takes up far too much of my time lately, so I've cut all my connections on social networking sites. I will no longer be using DailyBooth, Twitter, Facebook or MSN Messenger. As a consequence, I should have far more free time on my hands; time which I can use for school work, reading (God knows I need to catch up on my reading) and to finally get a handle on some of the things I've let slide over the past few years. If you know what I'm talking about, well done you for figuring it out.
For now, however, I'm going. I'll still post here (hopefully) twice a week. I've no idea what I'll talk about, but I'm sure I'll find something.
Good day!
Indeed...
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